It is lesbian visibility week,
though of course we are always visible,
but of course we don’t generally go around
flaunting our sexuality
despite that being a frequent accusation….
my favourite quote on this is from comedian Hannah Gadsby,
who says she cooks more,
but nobody calls her a chef comedian…
you see it’s not all about sex,
though for those who chose to debate us
that is all it is about,
it is about being in the world in a particular way,
like being left handed or short sighted,
like being neuro-diverse,
or a wheel chair user,
but of course not like any of those,
BECAUSE we are all unique,
there is not one lifestyle lived by lesbian women,
we are simply who we are…
some tall, some short,
our skin could be any colour,
we may be neuro-diverse, or not,
or even left handed! Perish the thought 🙂
as for me,
I am tall, a bit overweight, and
I read, I read as if reading were going out of fashion,
and I need to finish all the books,
I love the beach,
love painting,
write poems and am a deep introvert,
so I am not writing this to say look at me,
but if you do, please remember that
being a lesbian is a small part of who I am,
and everything about me,
it took me years to say the word,
to accept and love myself,
and I am still recovering from all of that hiding,
my skin still feels new when I out myself again and again,
and I bruise easily,
particularly when challenged and told I cannot be the me that I am,
because I lived a hidden life,
naming myself unacceptable…
BUT, I am accepted and loved
by the one who made me,
by the one who calls me precious, honoured, and known,
and there I find my comfort,
for when I was hidden they sat with me,
in my hiddenness , and waited,
until like a butterfly I was ready to emerge,
vulnerable, and more than a little afraid….
and yes I have been rejected, misunderstood and called a liar,
but I am me, and I am learning to be me,
as I walk this rainbow path of life…
