I don’t know what to say to you today,

I find that I am having to be honest with myself,

I am not blaming anyone for hurts,

but I am hurt, and cannot deny how I feel,

and I can’t be anything else but hurt,

I have tried, I really have,

but I am still hurt, and this time,

while not sitting and licking my wounds

I am speaking my truth,

I know it isn’t what you want to hear,

I know you think I am being unreasonable,

I know you think you’ve done all that you can,

and you probably have,

but the hurt was caused, and yes maybe I didn’t understand,

but that doesn’t mean I don’t hurt,

so to put on a smile, and pretend all is well is beyond me right now,

maybe, with time and with space I will find myself in a different place,

so please understand that old cliché,

it’s not you, it’s me,

seems to sum it up today, for I am hurt.

and I don’t know what to say to you,

but I don’t want to paper over the cracks this time,

or but a sticking plaster over an open wound,

for healing does not come that way,

healing takes time, and needs space,

and maybe this isn’t the time, place and space to deal with it,

because the reality is, it isn’t going to make any of us feel better,

not really…..

So, maybe we just need to agree to disagree, to respect one another,

and to choose one of love’s harder paths,

embracing the death of what was, is the only way

that resurrection is truly possible….