My dear heart,
I see that you are feeling down today, that you feel battered and bruised and without much hope. I see your tears and feel your pain, but I have known you intimately for a long time, and while you think you are devoid of much I want to tell you how strong you are.
I have seen you cope with terrible situations, dissapointments and bereavements, I have walked with you through them and watched you respond again and again with love and care. I have seen you also at your worst, when your reactions have been negative and hurtful, but while you think those shadows are who you are, I must tell you that they are not! They are not you because you not only see and acknowledge them, but you have also chosen to know yourself and learn from them…
…and now I even hear you when you bemoan the fact that you have a long way to go, and while I cannot disagree I know that you and I can and will make this joureny together because our companion is the lover and creator of us both, the one who holds us together, body and spirit, mind, soul and emotions.
You see the truth is that before we were even aware of it we were and always will be loved, we are a creation of love for loves sake, and even in the deepest and darkest of our wounds The Spirit will find us, will work and walk with us if we are willing until we are on the road to wholeness and healing. She will then lead us on firmer pathways, into the unforced rhythms of grace that were written for us, into the song of sheer delight that surrounds us, even when it has played in a muted, minor key.
I know that you feel all of this is impossible right now, I know you want to curl up and sleep the days away, that you feel numb and useless, but you must not and are not. So I am inviting you to accompany me for a while, if nothing else let me sit with you and hold you, and if you want to tell me your story, even though I know it, I will listen. I will listen and weep with you, and won’t demad that you dry your tears until you are good and ready.
I want you to know that over time I have learnt to love you, that was not always the case, and I am sorry that is so. I have made many demands upon you, demands that you appear to be something you are not, demands that you get up and get on when you haven’t had the strength, demands that you be strong without any atempt at understanding that you needed to rest. In many ways we have been cruel to one another you and I, we have ignored and neglected one another for appearances sake, but no longer.
Today I want to tell you that I love you, I see you, and I want us to be whole, together we are a force to be reckoned with, together we can nurture our body and mind, give expression to creativity and nurture loving community around us. Together we can find a healing and a wholeness that we cannot ever find alone.
So I want you to know that I am here for you, that I will try never to deny or despise you again, for we are and always have been one. My dear heart I am yours, will you be mine, will you walk with me into the light and possibility of a new day?
Your loving Soul xxx