knowing I am known

I come,

expecting judgement,

my knees tremble,

and my heart beats

wildly, as I quake

and tremble within,

I have come,

returned,

for my need is great,

I bring doubts and fears,

and carry self-condemnation

as a millstone

round my neck,

I come for I have nowhere

else to go…

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but what miracle is this,

I am circled and enfolded,

by loves desire to love

that will not let me go…

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yes, it was love that drew me here

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again…

My dear children, let’s not just talk about love; let’s practice real love. This is the only way we’ll know we’re living truly, living in God’s reality. It’s also the way to shut down debilitating self-criticism, even when there is something to it. For God is greater than our worried hearts and knows more about us than we do ourselves.

(1 John 3: 19-20)